runaway journal
sometimes days are beautiful, sometimes days make me tired, and i need a getaway
je me present.
little miss sunshine
Yelloooo. Hi, my name is Mesara Gusdi. My friends call me Mesa, well most of them. Aku lahir di Jakarta, 6 Maret 1991. And yeaaaap I'm a Pisces ( masih penting ya telling astrology). Born as the the second (and last) daughter of two, I grew up normally in a simple 4 membered family. J'adore la musique, le film, la mode, et la cuisine.
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Wednesday, October 20, 2010 @ 12:30 AM
Aduh, udah lama nggak ngepost, nanti kita catch up deh ya. haha.
well, the reason why i post this is because i have enough dealing with my friend's ego.
aaaaaaah, why do they never respect other's time. asking me to sacrifice my time, while they were laying there, do absolutely nothing? thank you. i don't need to be understand, but please respect me, i don't hav etime to waste. i respect my time more.
KESEEELLLL!!!!!
i know someday that this thing will come, and it comes now. and thank you for you who never respect other people, it makes me want to give less effort to respect you.
Thursday, May 6, 2010 @ 9:47 AM
lightning don't strike the same place twice, yeah? not really.
well not for me.
i've been falling at the same place over again. well, seems like lightning loves to struck me.
it hurts, it sucks (sorry), stupid.
ladadadaaaa..
tidak ada yang bisa merubah pribadi seseorang, and you can not hope that everyone will feel, do, or think things like you do, meskipun kamu sudah percaya apa yang kamu yang yakini itu benar dan baik.
badly for me, stressing again. i kept on hoping that doing good can lead you to something good. i'm not saying that i'm always good, but i tried to. orang bisa khilaf lah, i know, i can accept it. and when someone hurts me after all i've done, i kept on taking granted of what i've done inside of my head, keep it on silence. immature.
and then, i try to share the problem with someone, but the outcome is always on you, they might help, tapi tidak tahu kenapa dari kebanyakan orang yang aku ajak diskusi, mereka memilih untuk playing save, sedangkan hidup itu harus mengambil suatu tantangan, or they attack me to be patient (haaaalllloooooo?). it became a waste of time. you know what? at the end of the day the one you can lean on is you, you can trust is you (besides Allah Swt).
percaya deh, you are bigger than you are. you are much more.
and some problem, for me are better when i keep it for myself.
it's not that i don't want to share, but i think i'm better of that way.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 @ 12:33 AM
aaaaaah,i wish you all knew betapa panjangnya semester 2 ini temaaaan.hihi, jujur aku stress banget masuk semester 2 ini. yet, there's a lot of good and great news. but, let's start with the bads.
hmmmm. in two words i can sum up the bads : LAB FISDAS ! aaaaaaaaaaaah, gila banget deh. kalo gamtek aku masih tahan bgt ya, soalnya menggambar itu lumayan asik, dan jujur gamtek kind of brigs us together again.haha. tapi kalo udah fisdaaaaaaaas, haaaaaaaaaaaaaah. i hate thursdays!huhahuhuhuhaaahuaahuhuuhahaha. ga enak bgt deh mana laporannya setumpuk, unfriendly asdos, even a very small staircase knocks my head!
tapi semester dua ini lumayan asik sih over all:
yang paling pertama is my 19th birthdaaaaaay yaaaaaaaaaayy!!! waaaah, aku ngerassa ini yang paling spesial dari yang sebelumnya, dirayain 3 kali dan semuanya memorable banget. surprise yang pertama datang dari my tiui colleague. i love them all :) mereka berhasil membuat aku nangis sesegukan setelah stress seharian (thanks to mas dwiki, sang ketua imti yang membuat saya panik dengan intervensinya, ismi dan nuning yang gue ga tau darimana niat jahat kalian senior, buat pale yang idenya jujur mengiris hati, and best of all buat my fantastic four and beloved bfs nauli chacwa rina dan andina yang membantu rapih-rapih). seneeeeeeeeng banget rasanyaaaa banyak yang dateng hyaaaaaaaaaa selain yang tadi disebutin ada mulai dari arry cuy ajung uni dissa tuning egi eci eris emil sendhi diana felis dudit tomi (kabid siwa yang hampir membunuh saya, haha) rendra daril agung (haaaah, pake ngancem gamtek merah lagi!) makasssiiiiiiiiih :)
yang kedua adalaaaah MAKRAB IS A JOB WELDONE! yaaaaaaaaaay, setelah perjalanan panjang yang emosional dan fisiksional (apaaaa cobaaaaa), makrab berhasil diadakan dengan berbagai tantangan. TIUI09 semangaaaaaat !
sebenernya niat awal aku nyeritain semua ini berawal dari ide untuk menaruh cerita di bawah ini : SESA and MESA'S Story
haha, sebenernya aku ngerasa ini ngga jelas banget tapi istilahnya important dan urgent bgt untuk diceritain.
berawal dari diumumkannya hasil STAFFING LKTI maka aku masuk ke bagian Job Expo, acara yang konsepnya masih sangat samar dan perlu banyak bantuan pikiran dalam penyempurnaannya. laluuuuu beberapa saat kemudian datanglah sesa (si ibu kabid acara LKTI) mengajak aku bergabung juga ke acara. waaaah,jujur aku seneng banget karena memang pertama banget pengennya masuk acara. SO : YES, SESA!
ga berasa banget ternyata ini semua membuat aku keder dan over exhausted. like, aku selalu tidur di atas jam 2. bahkan pernah nginep bersama para panitia di WM. sepanjang persiapan, karena ada masalah pas opening jadi sesa pengan di closing dan ternyata ada gala dinner itu pol polan bgt. okeeeeeee kabiiiidd! alhasil, karena kebanyakan anak acara itu pulang pergi (bahkan sesa), biasanya sesa dan aku bersama echi standby di ui. tapi entah mengapa saat cuma berdua sesa, kami sangat error. hahaha. mulai dari "ses, mau apa nggak jadinya mesen 90 kursi?" yang ga tau kepastiannya bagaimana, terus acara mau ngambil uang di atm yang ternyata tidak perlu, "mes, gue bawa tas ga tadi pas turun dari mobil?" yang memaksa sesa jam 11 malen balik lagi ke lantai 4 WM, lalu saat pas bgt lampu departemen koslet kita malah pergi ke WM karena mau ngurusin acara dan kesannya kita ngeluyur gitu aj padahal bener-bener perlu, haha. dan BEST OF ALL bertemunya kita sama wenti yang lagi jalan dari arah mesin - metal dengan linglungnya dan aku tau banget dia itu ngantuk terus ngomong : "lo harus tau, tadi gue ikut acara Fusi" HAAAAAAAH? itu acara kan buat ikhwaaaaaan, later sesa bilang, "mes wenti non muslim" yang malah buat kita ketawa sepanjang malem, kita menyangka dia ngga sengaja ketiduran di kelas itu, terus pas bangun ada acara Fusi, ternyata dia memang sengaja ikut untuk endapat KONSUMSIIIII!!! ya ampuuuuun weeeentiiiiii.
huaaaaaa,panjangggnyaaaaaaaaaa. haha, yaaaa namanya juga semester yang panjang. sambung lagi ya kapan-kapan :)
Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 5:50 AM
ajegile ajegile ajegileee.
hahahaha.that's what i can tell you all.
after all my concerns about leaving high school, ternyata kehidupan kuliah itu extraordinary. seneeeeng banget ya di TIUI, hahaha. ga disangka-sangka tempat yang awalnya seems so strange for me, turns out to be a real home.aku bisa ngerasa aku grow up to become more mature. terlihat sekali bedanya yaaaa :)
i have many extraordinary friends! lebih senengnya lagi karena we live for each other kali ya. most of us stay in kutek, so i can feel that we taking care of each other. so sweet huh? indeed. ada rina, nauli, andina, dan cacuah (sebenernya ngejanya yang bener chacwa tapi rebek ah, hahaha) yang very close to me (apparently i'm moving out from my lovely but unfortunately so far and so dark kostan) with nauli and cacuaaaaah. ada sendhi dan ada bella yang menjadi teman belajaaar dan teman bercandaaa. (later, i tell you about the making of es teh manis segalon bersama sendhi), ada syuuudiiiinn si teman bervespa yang baikn suka baik nganterin balik ke kosaan (merciiiii) dan doyan dvd juga hihi.
aduh, ini sebenernya ceritanya loncat-loncat gapapa yaaa..hihi
jadiii, my freshman semester dimulai dengan adanya yaaah tahap-tahap ospek lah yaaaa. seruuuuuuuuuu! meskipun banyak drama yang i-dont-think-it-will-be-appropriate-to-write-it-here, but we gain a lot sebagai angkatan meskipun bisa lebih.hebohnya adalah saat UTS, maklum lah yaaaa, uts perdana semuaaa kacau balaaaaaauuuuuu.ahahahahaaa.. lalu kami melalui berbagai ulang tahun dengan atraksi loncat indah ke kolam ROTUNDA (oh ikan maafkan kami) oleh para pe-ulang tahun (aneh yaaa). lalu big TOPIK HEREEE : MAKRAB
naaaaah here we go ceritain the making of es teh manis segalon
jadi saya menjadi PJ danus, dan berkebijakan bahwa tiap temen-temen akan dibagi menjadi beberapa kelompok , di mana tiap kelompok dalam waktu dua minggu harus mengumpulkan min 1 juta. ternyata susaaaaaah yaaaaaa hikhikhik. naaaah, kebetulan ada event Bedah Kampus, kelompokku berinisiatif jualan di sana dan pengen jualah es teeeh. haha, tragically.. pembuatannya meribetkan orang satu kosan haha. aku sama sendi ga bisa masak dari air plumbing karena takut kotor. jadinya kita beli aqua galon, lalu memasukkannya ke ember lalu dengan sabarnya memasak air itu sampai mendidih dengan panci-panci kecil sekitar 300 ml an.. goooooood, rasanya kayak kebakar di dapur kosan. lalu kai menyeduh teh nyaaaa, nambahin gula (OH GOD YOU SHOULD SEE US), terus dengan bodohnya kita lupa bawa saringan teh, jadinya teh itu kita saring pake sendoook sampe nyaris gila..setelah selesai nyobain teh nya doooong dan ternyataaa teh nya paiiiiiiiiiiiiiittt..(god god god, ya allah sabarkan kami) yang ada kita ngencerin teh nya lalu menambahkan gula sedikit-sedikit terus mencoba terus-terusan sampe lupa rasa teh itu gimana hahahah. but like a fairy tale, happy ending kok. LAKUUU LOOOOOOO. hahahahaaa
then there's UAS the big. hahahahahaa, mulai deh saya SO 2 minggu. (kebiasaan hidup yang ternyata dinilai teman-teman saya kelewat hedon menyadarkan saya menjadi study oriented)..at it turns out well (except STATPROB huuuuaaa :( huh)
Saturday, October 24, 2009 @ 7:58 PM
belakangan ini aku mellow banget.days over days i think about what cause me this feeling,and now i know it.
i only had fell in love once.and now, i'm afraid to fell again.because of my first i think.i look at my friends, they have someone they admire, and think about.and i'm jealous with them.how they can open their heart like that,letting someone in.because everytime i have a crush at someone..i always think back at my tragical (agak lebay,tapi itu adanya..) story.
and i close my heart again.
but you know what?i think i need someone to take care of me too.but i'm just afraid,beside,i'm not that type of girl that every guys love.and the only one that can accept me is the last one.
i'm maybe that miss independent,i have a strong charracter,and not that type of sweet girl.
over 3 three days ago, i think about my decision to let the chance go,how i regret it,even until now.how can i being so intolerrant?i mean something have to be fight for, and i dont fight for it.
that's a big lesson.
i only had fell in love once.and now, i'm afraid to fell again.because of my first i think.i look at my friends, they have someone they admire, and think about.and i'm jealous with them.how they can open their heart like that,letting someone in.because everytime i have a crush at someone..i always think back at my tragical (agak lebay,tapi itu adanya..) story.
and i close my heart again.
but you know what?i think i need someone to take care of me too.but i'm just afraid,beside,i'm not that type of girl that every guys love.and the only one that can accept me is the last one.
i'm maybe that miss independent,i have a strong charracter,and not that type of sweet girl.
over 3 three days ago, i think about my decision to let the chance go,how i regret it,even until now.how can i being so intolerrant?i mean something have to be fight for, and i dont fight for it.
that's a big lesson.
Saturday, August 22, 2009 @ 6:14 AM
GO!
gila.gila.gila.
aduh,ga ada kata lain deh yang bisa ngungkapin bagaimana perasaan gue (dan badan gue) selama jadi maba (mahasiswa baru) di UI.huaaaaaaaaaa.
but over all,now i can say that i enjoy every minute of it.
-life in kostan..
woooooow,i have a loooot of great mates there.pertama kenalan sama alysa,si anak fe (managemen),terus pas ngobrol malem-malem..eh ada dua lagiii..siska (aka mbak.tante ruameee) terus ada niaa.tak lama kemudian kenalan sama tatan (HUAAA,teddy bear!) sama riri (si kebooo,ayo dong riii,banguuuuun!)jugaaa.terus pada akhirnya kenalan sama raniii(awalnya salah mulu,gue kira rina, ria,bahkan ira!) meskipun masya allah jauhnya tempat kos ituuuu,tapi lumayan loh buat olah raga..dan udaranya lumayan sejuk.dan karena jauh juga sebenernya kita jadi pada males keluar..haha(mungkin gara2 itu jadi deket kali yaa?).tapi kalo udah yang namanya makan,karena rata-rata pada bar-bar..kita menjelajahi tuh kutek tengah..semuanya kita jajalin sampe yang jauhnya minta ampun (later on, after having dinner there,kita ngerasa udah laper lagi).hahahaaa.yang ada kita makan muluuuu jadinya.tapi ga tau kenapa porsi makan aku jadi kayak kuliiiii banget!untung badan menyesuaikan(ALHAMDULILLAH).
-intermezzo
aku baru aja potong rambut (tapi poninya tidak,apparently),alhasil baguuuuuuus bgt!LOVE IT!rapiiiiih bgt gitu abis potong rambut.well every side has its twist side,aku lupa aku baru aja creambath.abis besoknya cuci rambut,JELEGEEEEER!itu rambut ngembaaaaaaang bgt!sampe-sampe siska bilang "rambut lo emang ga bisa rapih ya?perasaan dulu lumayan".huahuahuaaaa.setelah memutar otak,gue mencoba sebuah merk vitamin rambut..dan hasilnya,alhamdulillah,berkah ramadahn pun datang (lebay).it works great!
back to kostan..
what i love about living with them is that..the fact that we always share everything together.dari makanan,obrolan (oh iya,terkadang gue merasa gue bisa telepati sama mbak siska,jadi kalo udah ngobrol bareng-bareng yang lain suka kayak "laaah,gue baru mau ngomong gituuu"),gosippan, gebetan,sampe kamar,super pel,air panas buat susu (thank youuuuu niaaaaaa), dan bahkan ngerjain tugas bareng meskipun beda-beda fakultas.huaaaaaa...seneng deeeeeh.
hah,cuapek ah,nyambung kapan-kapan lagi yaaaaa :)
gila.gila.gila.
aduh,ga ada kata lain deh yang bisa ngungkapin bagaimana perasaan gue (dan badan gue) selama jadi maba (mahasiswa baru) di UI.huaaaaaaaaaa.
but over all,now i can say that i enjoy every minute of it.
-life in kostan..
woooooow,i have a loooot of great mates there.pertama kenalan sama alysa,si anak fe (managemen),terus pas ngobrol malem-malem..eh ada dua lagiii..siska (aka mbak.tante ruameee) terus ada niaa.tak lama kemudian kenalan sama tatan (HUAAA,teddy bear!) sama riri (si kebooo,ayo dong riii,banguuuuun!)jugaaa.terus pada akhirnya kenalan sama raniii(awalnya salah mulu,gue kira rina, ria,bahkan ira!) meskipun masya allah jauhnya tempat kos ituuuu,tapi lumayan loh buat olah raga..dan udaranya lumayan sejuk.dan karena jauh juga sebenernya kita jadi pada males keluar..haha(mungkin gara2 itu jadi deket kali yaa?).tapi kalo udah yang namanya makan,karena rata-rata pada bar-bar..kita menjelajahi tuh kutek tengah..semuanya kita jajalin sampe yang jauhnya minta ampun (later on, after having dinner there,kita ngerasa udah laper lagi).hahahaaa.yang ada kita makan muluuuu jadinya.tapi ga tau kenapa porsi makan aku jadi kayak kuliiiii banget!untung badan menyesuaikan(ALHAMDULILLAH).
-intermezzo
aku baru aja potong rambut (tapi poninya tidak,apparently),alhasil baguuuuuuus bgt!LOVE IT!rapiiiiih bgt gitu abis potong rambut.well every side has its twist side,aku lupa aku baru aja creambath.abis besoknya cuci rambut,JELEGEEEEER!itu rambut ngembaaaaaaang bgt!sampe-sampe siska bilang "rambut lo emang ga bisa rapih ya?perasaan dulu lumayan".huahuahuaaaa.setelah memutar otak,gue mencoba sebuah merk vitamin rambut..dan hasilnya,alhamdulillah,berkah ramadahn pun datang (lebay).it works great!
back to kostan..
what i love about living with them is that..the fact that we always share everything together.dari makanan,obrolan (oh iya,terkadang gue merasa gue bisa telepati sama mbak siska,jadi kalo udah ngobrol bareng-bareng yang lain suka kayak "laaah,gue baru mau ngomong gituuu"),gosippan, gebetan,sampe kamar,super pel,air panas buat susu (thank youuuuu niaaaaaa), dan bahkan ngerjain tugas bareng meskipun beda-beda fakultas.huaaaaaa...seneng deeeeeh.
hah,cuapek ah,nyambung kapan-kapan lagi yaaaaa :)
Thursday, July 30, 2009 @ 6:12 AM
aku punya banyak banget celebrity crushes!!hahaha.i'm a pretty addicted fan of movie or music.soo i know well about that world.and i hate when i go on facebook i can only pick 5 of them.so here some my crushes:
- orlando bloom : apparently, he's been dating miranda kerr,which is one of my favourite angels.hahaha.
- james denton : MIKE DELFINO, i love you soooo much!
- hugh dancy : hot british!muaaah!
- brad pitt : come on,you have to admit that he is handsome
- justin timberlake : well, he brings SEXY BACK!
- hugh jackman : oh my GOD! this creature makes my jaws drops!
- keanu reeves : though aged, SO WHAT?
- robert pattinson : he brings pale sexy again!
- wentworth miller : i know that he's the model of we belong together!
- kris allen : pretty boy,pretty voice = melt me!
- johny depp : HOT PIRATES!!
- chad michael murray : teenager crush!hahahahaaaa.
- ewan mcgregor : MOULIN ROUGE + ANGELS AND DEMONS = SUPERB
- colin farell : bad boy = who doesn't want it?
- mark feehily : i know he's gay WHO CARES?the guy's georgeous!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009 @ 7:52 AM
-seeing the beauty in ugly-
aku nggak pernah suka sama yang namanya perpisahan.but guess what?i've dealt with that sooooo many times.and now i'm saying goodbye to highschool.and i hate that.i love whatever happened there.maybe some are sad,annoying,but that's the part where i gain the most.i know how to find a true firend,to behave to people,to learn that everything doesn't have to be perfect, and sometimes things aren't go your way.and just deal with it.
trough my lone holiday i figure the beauty in this farewell.if this thing, this kind of thing, doesn't happen, how can i respect what i have?how can i know what i've got?how can i know that the past three years is such a treasure that can never be replace?Allah itu memang Maha Penyayang.untung banget aku bisa melihat semuanya lebih jelas di saat aku butuh.
dan akhirnya aku tahu,there's still so much out there waiting for me to reach.so the next treasure map is COLLEGE!
aku nggak pernah suka sama yang namanya perpisahan.but guess what?i've dealt with that sooooo many times.and now i'm saying goodbye to highschool.and i hate that.i love whatever happened there.maybe some are sad,annoying,but that's the part where i gain the most.i know how to find a true firend,to behave to people,to learn that everything doesn't have to be perfect, and sometimes things aren't go your way.and just deal with it.
trough my lone holiday i figure the beauty in this farewell.if this thing, this kind of thing, doesn't happen, how can i respect what i have?how can i know what i've got?how can i know that the past three years is such a treasure that can never be replace?Allah itu memang Maha Penyayang.untung banget aku bisa melihat semuanya lebih jelas di saat aku butuh.
dan akhirnya aku tahu,there's still so much out there waiting for me to reach.so the next treasure map is COLLEGE!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 7:17 AM
so, here it goes..
have you ever been in love and you can only get as close as the bestfriends?yeaah, i've been there.
i like this guy, for...as long as i can remember,and i can't get over him.till one day.the talks with my friends begin..and they open my mind.
here my best part of chat with CIKA: she reminded me that i cannot control this guy..whatever happen, yang bisa aku lakukan hanya IKHLAS.ya..ikhlas.simple ya..tapi susah bgt kalo mau dilakukan.apalagi kalo kita berpikir, udah ikhlas beneran belum ya?kita emang cuma bisa pasrah..dan berusaha.mungkin tidak berhasil,tapi..everything worth a try.kalo ga berjalan sesuai rencana.mungkin kita jalanin aja perasaan yang ada..rasain aja sedihnya,sakit hatinya,dan segala macam kehebohan lainnya..and guess what, you gain more!dengan ga sadar untuk mengikhlaskan sesuatu,kita justru bisa ikhlas..and i'm working on this..
my best part with MADE: people say that "all kindness will go back to you again..what is good,will come out good as well"..well,maybe it's not.terkadang kita udah baiiik bangeeet sama orang,dan yakin orang tersebut pasti akan baik juga sama kita.but,sometimes life is not that perfect.sometimes the good person get hurts.and the worst part is orang yang membuat kita sakit hati tidak sadar..and all we can do is just keep in silence.di situlah aku ngeliat indahnya hidup..it's like i've hit the bottom of the rock,yet i'm still standing here.berarti i'm a strong person..maybe brittle inside,but it's better be the one that get hurt,than hurting someone..dan mungkin saat kita memberikan suatu kebaikan,balasannya tidak seperti yang kita inginkan.
my best part with MODOS: never expect too much of someone.take them as what they are.give everything you could.aku ga bisa jelasin banyak ya masalah yang ini.karena menurutku, i still try to take it..it's a too mature of him.hahaha..but this one nails me on my head.
and now, in this night..
i learn that i am what i am, the one that maybe way too kind to other people,the one that take everything too seriously..but you know?i proudly say: aku ikhlas menerima diri sendiri seperti ini,meski mungkin memberikan segala sesuatu yang terbaik belum tentu mendapatkan hasil terbaik yang kita inginkan,but..i will keep on give my best..everything i have.
have you ever been in love and you can only get as close as the bestfriends?yeaah, i've been there.
i like this guy, for...as long as i can remember,and i can't get over him.till one day.the talks with my friends begin..and they open my mind.
here my best part of chat with CIKA: she reminded me that i cannot control this guy..whatever happen, yang bisa aku lakukan hanya IKHLAS.ya..ikhlas.simple ya..tapi susah bgt kalo mau dilakukan.apalagi kalo kita berpikir, udah ikhlas beneran belum ya?kita emang cuma bisa pasrah..dan berusaha.mungkin tidak berhasil,tapi..everything worth a try.kalo ga berjalan sesuai rencana.mungkin kita jalanin aja perasaan yang ada..rasain aja sedihnya,sakit hatinya,dan segala macam kehebohan lainnya..and guess what, you gain more!dengan ga sadar untuk mengikhlaskan sesuatu,kita justru bisa ikhlas..and i'm working on this..
my best part with MADE: people say that "all kindness will go back to you again..what is good,will come out good as well"..well,maybe it's not.terkadang kita udah baiiik bangeeet sama orang,dan yakin orang tersebut pasti akan baik juga sama kita.but,sometimes life is not that perfect.sometimes the good person get hurts.and the worst part is orang yang membuat kita sakit hati tidak sadar..and all we can do is just keep in silence.di situlah aku ngeliat indahnya hidup..it's like i've hit the bottom of the rock,yet i'm still standing here.berarti i'm a strong person..maybe brittle inside,but it's better be the one that get hurt,than hurting someone..dan mungkin saat kita memberikan suatu kebaikan,balasannya tidak seperti yang kita inginkan.
my best part with MODOS: never expect too much of someone.take them as what they are.give everything you could.aku ga bisa jelasin banyak ya masalah yang ini.karena menurutku, i still try to take it..it's a too mature of him.hahaha..but this one nails me on my head.
and now, in this night..
i learn that i am what i am, the one that maybe way too kind to other people,the one that take everything too seriously..but you know?i proudly say: aku ikhlas menerima diri sendiri seperti ini,meski mungkin memberikan segala sesuatu yang terbaik belum tentu mendapatkan hasil terbaik yang kita inginkan,but..i will keep on give my best..everything i have.
Monday, July 13, 2009 @ 4:33 AM
there are two pefumes that become my favourite fragrance now..and i recommend you to try it.trust me, i'm good at this..
- Chance by Chanel : it's everything you want..elegance, fresh (which i prefer),and light sweet. you won't dissapointed. my friends all like it..even some fashion magazine put it in their favourite list.
- White Musk White Hot Summer by the Body Shop: this one a bit sweeter than chance..but the freshness will come out as soon as you spray it..it'ss greaaaat
@ 4:20 AM
I LOOOOVEEE FRIENDS!i don't get bored to watch it over and over again.(same case happen to MY WIFE AND KIDS)..and the character i love the most is..JOEY (berrebbebbuuuusss,it supposed to sound like Chandler's).
just one thing i find it not too good.i want rachel to ended up with joey..it's funny.because two of them taking a good care of each other,especially when rachel's pregnant..but,sometimes the story has it own way to give a message..sooo.i still love it..and now,i'm watching it!
just one thing i find it not too good.i want rachel to ended up with joey..it's funny.because two of them taking a good care of each other,especially when rachel's pregnant..but,sometimes the story has it own way to give a message..sooo.i still love it..and now,i'm watching it!
@ 3:58 AM
lately,i've been trying to find black blazer..pengen banget punya..tapi kebanyakan blazer yang ada itu bahannya tebel.i want it to be light,jadi lebih nyaman dipakai.akhirnya,setelah lelah mencari ketemu sih blazer bagus di ZARA.it's light..but the material is jeans..aku lebih banyak pake jeans buat sehari-hari..jadi kalo pake jeans blazer ini..sama aja dengan FASHION SUICIDE!akhirnya aku nyerah..terus nyari di e-bay.guess what i've found the perfect one!
it's topshop..i'm very happy i've found it..kayak,udah capek banget cari di internet dan menemukan deskripsi yang sangat tepat..
BUT.i forget to checked the price...
oh,my GOD..it's 40poundsterling (that's even without mailing fee)..
lemes deh..hahahahaaa
it's topshop..i'm very happy i've found it..kayak,udah capek banget cari di internet dan menemukan deskripsi yang sangat tepat..
BUT.i forget to checked the price...
oh,my GOD..it's 40poundsterling (that's even without mailing fee)..
lemes deh..hahahahaaa
@ 2:41 AM
liburan ini lama bangeeeet.sampe bosen sampe ngisi-ngisi kuis yang ga jelas..haha.
well,but this one quite wicked!it nails me on the head!read this!
well,but this one quite wicked!it nails me on the head!read this!
Discover Your Name Number
Mesara this is what your Name Number reveals about you!
Mesara Gusdi
mesara 4+5+1+1+9+1=21
gusdi 7+3+1+4+9=24
21+24=45
4 + 5 = 9
The Name Number is : 9
This is the teacher. Number Nine is a tolerant, somewhat impractical, and sympathetic vibration. Ruled by Mars.
Keywords: jack of all trades, humanitarian, sympathetic, helpful, emotional, tolerant, active, determined. If expressed negatively: financially careless, moody, bullying, overly emotional, sullen, restless.
As lovers: These lovers are involved and helpful. Because they are sympathetic, they can easily be doormats. They show their love by helping their partners, and assuming their lovers' problems. If triggered, their emotions can be volcanic, and a seemingly meek personality can resort to bullying tactics when unhappy.
GOSH! hahahahaaaa.now you know.
Mesara Gusdi
mesara 4+5+1+1+9+1=21
gusdi 7+3+1+4+9=24
21+24=45
4 + 5 = 9
The Name Number is : 9
This is the teacher. Number Nine is a tolerant, somewhat impractical, and sympathetic vibration. Ruled by Mars.
Keywords: jack of all trades, humanitarian, sympathetic, helpful, emotional, tolerant, active, determined. If expressed negatively: financially careless, moody, bullying, overly emotional, sullen, restless.
As lovers: These lovers are involved and helpful. Because they are sympathetic, they can easily be doormats. They show their love by helping their partners, and assuming their lovers' problems. If triggered, their emotions can be volcanic, and a seemingly meek personality can resort to bullying tactics when unhappy.
GOSH! hahahahaaaa.now you know.
Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 9:51 PM
i don't know whether i should be happy and jumping around, or sad about this new transition.it's cool you know, college.but i left something big..my high school life.maybe my life in highschool it's not exactly what i hoped it would be..but, it's great.meskipun banyak banget yang harus dilalui with my own power,there's the point i learned about living together.temen-temen di sekolah (my highschool is 70 HS) is beyond my expectation..there are some mean girls,of course.some that weird..but some i found like my treasure..NIKEN,DITA,RINI,CIKA,PIPIT,MADE,LOLA,and sooo many others like my friends in SARKAST1C(my 12th grade classmate).they are honest, care, and accept me for the way i am. they always there whan i need them..not all.but some of them will. we've been trough a lot..but we stand together.
and now i'm going to univesity of indonesia.which is great,but i'm not ready yet.and above all..there are not many of my friends that can get in there.only made..and i know,we will miss each other..
BUT,there comes the time when you forget each other..and this friendships can't hold on any longer.we made promise to keep in touch and to held reunion every once in a while..but can we did it?i don't think so..
i pray to GOD (ya Allah,tolong ya Allah), that i will have as goog as this HS life in college.but everyone stands in denial..they told me that university life is different from HS,it's individual..everyone for themselves..
i know that i've always been the one who taking charge, the one that you count on,and taking care of other..but i need them..i need to find these people.they are the best friends..
haaaaah,i've been whining lately..lo siento.
pray for me..
and now i'm going to univesity of indonesia.which is great,but i'm not ready yet.and above all..there are not many of my friends that can get in there.only made..and i know,we will miss each other..
BUT,there comes the time when you forget each other..and this friendships can't hold on any longer.we made promise to keep in touch and to held reunion every once in a while..but can we did it?i don't think so..
i pray to GOD (ya Allah,tolong ya Allah), that i will have as goog as this HS life in college.but everyone stands in denial..they told me that university life is different from HS,it's individual..everyone for themselves..
i know that i've always been the one who taking charge, the one that you count on,and taking care of other..but i need them..i need to find these people.they are the best friends..
haaaaah,i've been whining lately..lo siento.
pray for me..
@ 7:32 AM
i love rain. i love the sound of the water, the smell of wet soil, the way it touches my skin, and the way it calms me down..
and i found this photo..and it's wonderful.
@ 6:47 AM
it's my first day for blogging. i don't know what to expect,but i hope it'll help me , well my emotion, to get trough things around my world, my life.
hope the best for me okay?
bonne nuit!
last flight home
kunjungi iniii!!
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