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sometimes days are beautiful, sometimes days make me tired, and i need a getaway
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little miss sunshine
Yelloooo. Hi, my name is Mesara Gusdi. My friends call me Mesa, well most of them. Aku lahir di Jakarta, 6 Maret 1991. And yeaaaap I'm a Pisces ( masih penting ya telling astrology). Born as the the second (and last) daughter of two, I grew up normally in a simple 4 membered family. J'adore la musique, le film, la mode, et la cuisine.
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009 @ 7:17 AM
so, here it goes..
have you ever been in love and you can only get as close as the bestfriends?yeaah, i've been there.
i like this guy, for...as long as i can remember,and i can't get over him.till one day.the talks with my friends begin..and they open my mind.
here my best part of chat with CIKA: she reminded me that i cannot control this guy..whatever happen, yang bisa aku lakukan hanya IKHLAS.ya..ikhlas.simple ya..tapi susah bgt kalo mau dilakukan.apalagi kalo kita berpikir, udah ikhlas beneran belum ya?kita emang cuma bisa pasrah..dan berusaha.mungkin tidak berhasil,tapi..everything worth a try.kalo ga berjalan sesuai rencana.mungkin kita jalanin aja perasaan yang ada..rasain aja sedihnya,sakit hatinya,dan segala macam kehebohan lainnya..and guess what, you gain more!dengan ga sadar untuk mengikhlaskan sesuatu,kita justru bisa ikhlas..and i'm working on this..
my best part with MADE: people say that "all kindness will go back to you again..what is good,will come out good as well"..well,maybe it's not.terkadang kita udah baiiik bangeeet sama orang,dan yakin orang tersebut pasti akan baik juga sama kita.but,sometimes life is not that perfect.sometimes the good person get hurts.and the worst part is orang yang membuat kita sakit hati tidak sadar..and all we can do is just keep in silence.di situlah aku ngeliat indahnya hidup..it's like i've hit the bottom of the rock,yet i'm still standing here.berarti i'm a strong person..maybe brittle inside,but it's better be the one that get hurt,than hurting someone..dan mungkin saat kita memberikan suatu kebaikan,balasannya tidak seperti yang kita inginkan.
my best part with MODOS: never expect too much of someone.take them as what they are.give everything you could.aku ga bisa jelasin banyak ya masalah yang ini.karena menurutku, i still try to take it..it's a too mature of him.hahaha..but this one nails me on my head.
and now, in this night..
i learn that i am what i am, the one that maybe way too kind to other people,the one that take everything too seriously..but you know?i proudly say: aku ikhlas menerima diri sendiri seperti ini,meski mungkin memberikan segala sesuatu yang terbaik belum tentu mendapatkan hasil terbaik yang kita inginkan,but..i will keep on give my best..everything i have.
have you ever been in love and you can only get as close as the bestfriends?yeaah, i've been there.
i like this guy, for...as long as i can remember,and i can't get over him.till one day.the talks with my friends begin..and they open my mind.
here my best part of chat with CIKA: she reminded me that i cannot control this guy..whatever happen, yang bisa aku lakukan hanya IKHLAS.ya..ikhlas.simple ya..tapi susah bgt kalo mau dilakukan.apalagi kalo kita berpikir, udah ikhlas beneran belum ya?kita emang cuma bisa pasrah..dan berusaha.mungkin tidak berhasil,tapi..everything worth a try.kalo ga berjalan sesuai rencana.mungkin kita jalanin aja perasaan yang ada..rasain aja sedihnya,sakit hatinya,dan segala macam kehebohan lainnya..and guess what, you gain more!dengan ga sadar untuk mengikhlaskan sesuatu,kita justru bisa ikhlas..and i'm working on this..
my best part with MADE: people say that "all kindness will go back to you again..what is good,will come out good as well"..well,maybe it's not.terkadang kita udah baiiik bangeeet sama orang,dan yakin orang tersebut pasti akan baik juga sama kita.but,sometimes life is not that perfect.sometimes the good person get hurts.and the worst part is orang yang membuat kita sakit hati tidak sadar..and all we can do is just keep in silence.di situlah aku ngeliat indahnya hidup..it's like i've hit the bottom of the rock,yet i'm still standing here.berarti i'm a strong person..maybe brittle inside,but it's better be the one that get hurt,than hurting someone..dan mungkin saat kita memberikan suatu kebaikan,balasannya tidak seperti yang kita inginkan.
my best part with MODOS: never expect too much of someone.take them as what they are.give everything you could.aku ga bisa jelasin banyak ya masalah yang ini.karena menurutku, i still try to take it..it's a too mature of him.hahaha..but this one nails me on my head.
and now, in this night..
i learn that i am what i am, the one that maybe way too kind to other people,the one that take everything too seriously..but you know?i proudly say: aku ikhlas menerima diri sendiri seperti ini,meski mungkin memberikan segala sesuatu yang terbaik belum tentu mendapatkan hasil terbaik yang kita inginkan,but..i will keep on give my best..everything i have.
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